Over the past 14 years of raising my children, I have severely neglected myself. I stopped caring about what I looked liked, forsaken my health and well being. I have been eating like crap, not exercising and ignoring my appearance. I get my haircut about once a year, regardless if it needs it or not. I don’t use any skincare and don’t wear make up. You can usually find me wearing yoga pants and hoodies. I think I only own one pair of regular pants and one pair of jeans.
I have decided, now that I have teenagers, I have a lot more free time to focus on myself. With all of this new found time, I have noticed that I don’t know who I am anymore. I know that I am a wife and a mother, but outside of that I am not sure. Yes, I work full time, but that is just a job that pays the bills. My job doesn’t define me as a person. So, who am I anyway?
As of right now I see myself as a middle aged overweight woman who has let herself go significantly! I have no hobbies or interests outside of my children. So, I have decided to start focusing more energy on myself and building myself back up. I need to start feeling better about myself inside and out. I am going to go on a journey to improve myself.
My motto for this journey is small steps to a healthier me. Not just physically but mentally too. I need to find things that bring me joy outside of my home by being more active and find a hobby. I don’t ever remember having a hobby. I have tried a few things, but nothing seems to excite me. Just like exercising, hobbies have just never been important enough for me to stick with. Starting my blog and Youtube channel have helped significantly. I find myself spending hours working on these projects.
I have decided to start this series and write this blog post not only to share my adventure, but to also hold myself accountable. I don’t know how many times over the past few years I have said I was going to make changes, but don’t. I start off strong and then it falls by the wayside, due to lack of motivation and pure laziness, to be honest.
Right now starts a new adventure for me! I am starting off extremely small, with baby steps. I have been so unhealthy and neglectful of myself that I need to ease my way back to a healthy place. I figure I would start off with the most important meal of the day, breakfast. I made myself a yogurt parfait for breakfast this morning. It was quick, easy and delicious. Not to mention so much healthier than a Poptart or a bagel.
Next on my agenda is to tackle lunch and become more active. Lunch will be pretty easy and I will share with everyone what I am eating. This again will hold me accountable and also may help inspire others to start caring for themselves too. Trying to be more active, is going to be my biggest challenge. Currently my activity level is basically walking from my desk to my kitchen and to my bathroom. Weekly, I go to the grocery store and I drive my children to different activities and that is it! Yes, I know that is very unhealthy and pretty sad! There is no need to lecture me, I know it is not good and extremely unhealthy.
I have never been one to exercise, and frankly I just hate it. I don’t like to sweat or be out of breathe, so it just hasn’t been a priority for me. My plan is to just get out of the house more. Even if it is just to go to a store, a walk, or hanging with friends. I just have to get out of this house! Sitting in this house from morning until night is depressing, alienating and detrimental to my overall well being. I work from home full time, so I don’t even leave during the day for that.
Here is a list of things I want to focus on for the first month or so:
- Eating healthier
- Getting out of the house
- Being more active
- Try to find a hobby/interest
Help me stay focused and motivated on this new adventure. If anyone has any tips or suggestions for me, please let me know.